I've made a rather significant change, which I am EXTREMELY excited about... but I'm not going to be ready to share it until right before my comp. I just have to be careful to not let any negative-isms into my routine. My mind can and will run with any negativity. So be expecting a surprise around the time of my comp!
5 WEEKSSSS!!! I can't believe it and I'm half sweating it! Its just crazy! I am not and cannot count down the days. It freaks me the frank out. Weeks makes it seem longer and like I have more time, otherwise I freak out about not having enough time to make the necessary changes! And therefore do not sleep. Insomnia makes everything worse.
Training: I'm losing strength this week, 10 lb bicep curls, wtf?! Fail. I half thought it on Monday and it was certain on back day... 70lbs felt so so SO hard on the lat pulldown. On the positive side it is taking me less to get sore! lol! I'm lifting less and my back, core, and triceps are sore. But my perserverance is still up, set out to only run 18 mins (and some stairmill after) on Tuesday and ended up running for 40! I may be wearing thin, but I am not wearing down!
Diet: No more cheatsies. :) But I'm kind of glad, still. I'm still glad that I now have the opportunity for 6 straight weeks to bring my absolute best package to the stage. I might be grumpy, but I am excited! Still completely off all artificial sweeteners... and still having crampy issues in the tummy while running. Its so weird. I cannot peg it to anything at this point. The only processed anything I am taking into my body is protein powder and supplements.
Posing: On the daily! :)
|Not an actual pose, but just liked how this one showed my round shoulders!|
Appointments: I'm starting to get these down. Anyone have any suggestions for how to work with the tanner and do a photoshoot the day before? I should just do it the day after, but I want a good rest day on Sunday! I know what I need to book, I just don't know what my schedule will look like yet.
I love my boyfriend. He makes my life so much easier.
I've noticed, quite literally, that I lose fat from top to bottom. Srsly. My back is LEAN :
|Blurry, but leansy!|
I wrote a little breakup letter to my fat, wanna hear it? (shush, I'm carb deprived and desperate for my hard work to show)
You have kind of become a free-loader. You spend your time wasting away under the skin around my hips and tummy, and you definitely aren't pulling your weight like the rest of my body. I mean, you are only really functional in emergency situations, which doesn't make you valuable it makes you annoying. I think its time you've found a new residence somewhere outside my body because let's be honest... this relationship just isn't working out for either of us. I don't and can't continually feed you so you can thrive, and you both weigh me down and aren't flattering to have hanging around when I want to wear a bathing suit. I mean for the love of sweet baby Jesus on Christmas morning, NO ONE LIKES YOU! You have T-Minus 37 days to get all your shit and get the hell out.
Have a fabulous weekend everyone! If I don't respond to your posts, please know that I'm reading & thinking about you all!
STAY TUNED IN for the next 5 weeks and a fun surprise!!